My husband and I have beautiful 6-year-old triplets. They are one of the biggest joys of our lives. A true gift that we praise God for and thank Him on a daily basis. From afar the picture looks so complete. A great marriage, 3 kids, 1 dog, a house and fulfilling careers in ministry but make no mistake there were blind faith walks that got us here.
When we decided it was time to have children we had been married for 1 year and dating for 5 years. So we felt comfortable walking into this next phase of our lives. I had a great up-and-coming career at a large entertainment studio, he was teaching and an actor in Hollywood. How fun it was going to be!! We did all the responsible things and off we went. By sheer happenstance we quickly realized that this dream was not going to happen on its own. Due to health issues that arose we found ourselves in a very dark and heartbroken place. (details to follow in a future blog)
We had been Christians for 5 years and living our lives fully for God’s leading and yet the enemy seemed to be trying to tie us to the sins of our past. After a lot of praying, searching, education and tears we knew that we knew God’s promise for our lives.
Isaiah 54: 1-3
Sing, O childless woman, you who have never given birth. Break into loud and joyful song, O Jerusalem you who have never been in labor. For the desolate woman now has more children than the woman who lives with her husband, says the Lord.Enlarge your house; build an addition. Spread out your home, and spare no expense! For you will soon be bursting at the seams. Your descendants will occupy other nations and resettle the ruined cities.
Now choosing IVF was not an easy and quick decision and many factors play into this decision. For us, we felt like the answer was “go”. During this journey we had three “rounds” of ivf. The way it works is that they manipulate your body to “over ovulate” in order to work with the most viable eggs produced. The first two rounds proved to be successful and fruitful but unfortunately both of these resulted in later miscarriages. A devastating loss but through it we knew that we knew the promise for us. The third “round” we knew would be our last…at least for a while. We were financially depleted and emotionally weary.
We started the argyrous journey of doctors visits, tests, injections, tests, doctors visits all covered in prayer and belief. Two days before the actual procedure my Doctor called. He was a kind and compassionate man and wanted to let me know that this round had not produced the amount of eggs they would have hoped for. He suggested we stop the process, give my body a break and start over in a few months. I was speechless. The first round had produced 13 eggs and the second round 11 and this round was barely holding on to 6. This was not the direction I was promised!! I did what I knew to do….I fell on my knee’s and prayed! I cried out to our heavenly Father and asked him for direction. I cried from a deep sense of sorrow and told him that I would follow regardless of how I felt because I trusted His ultimate answer and believed His promise to us.
While I was praying I heard a quiet prompting question…. “Do you only trust me in abundance? Who do you think I AM?” I knew instantly what my answer was. I called my husband and told him the entire story. I told him that our God does not have limits and that I trusted with little and knew he did not need more of anything to respond. So we agreed to continue and that whatever the answer was we would feel like we had been obedient and would give God the following year to speak to us.
We flew to New York and went through with the round. We explained to our Doctor that we had resolved to believe His ultimate answer for us and were at peace but needed to be obedient with what was in our hands. After all, all you need is a mustard seed. Needless to say that on this round we fell pregnant again! Now the journey to get through the first trimester without another loss, but this time was different and we knew it!
Here we are 7 years later with our 6 year-old TRIPLETS that sprung from a place of “little” into a house full of abundance!!! God needs nothing to bless you but your faith and obedience. Abundance does not enlarge any “chances” because He is after all the Creator of it all. So even when it seems like you have less than required, when your faith is weak, when your walk is slow and when your prayer is a whisper…He still hears and abundance comes from Him alone!
I will teach all your children, and they will enjoy great peace.